I think it started about a year ago. My team just completed large project, I pushed and drove my team to the brink but we did it right on the deadline. Huge success with customers. By HUGE I mean they said it is best IT project ever built for them.

Then we simply start doing app support for it, boring as hell. No project assigned, daily grind. My team start going mad, my relationships with my manager went south. So I negotiated severance package out of them, got new job as Director in another huge investment firm.

My new boss is fantastic guy, understanding and kind, colleagues are great too, I actually worked with two of them in previous company, another is turkish guy with very similar profile to mine. Fuck, it is downtown, 3-4 hours a day for commute, no real projects, I am expected just give architectural directions, which products to buy, how to integrate. So detached from ongoing work. Big mistake.
Now I feel so guilty to everyone (boss, my wife) for hating my new work.

AS I was signing up, I also turned down pretty good managerial role in major banks cap markets division (though it was java tech shop, but they did not care, they just wanted me desperately).

I feel so stupid and devastated.

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